2 weeks off

Enjoying a break, although work has been a lot better over last few months I really need a break! Last weekend a patient screamed in my face and told me to leave her house, I was so shaken, she made me cry. I didn't like being at work on my own on that day :( I felt out of my depth and wonder if I will ever be back to myself? I'm going to see GP this week, see what he says.
On Sunday we celebrated Blod's 21st, I cannot believe it has been 21 years since I was 21 and held that little scrap it for the first time in mum's garden. She is a beautiful, lovely person. And no I don't think I'm biased! It was a lovely family day, the sun shone and Billy enjoyed the bbq!
To celebrate T's day we went to London, I loved living there, oh to be young again and not contemplating marriage to a, hmm well I leave that thought, you shouldn't really say "what if" should you?! Anyway it was a very special day out with both kids, we took cabs and enjoyed a lot of al fresco dinning. Lunch in the Tate with j & j, Miro exhibition and Biggles' special sausage shop. Fab.
Mum made T a coming home from school cake, it was a good day.

Last days of RMAC for M

We have had a lovely few days, it's been busy and a bit stressful but very worth it. M finished his GCSE's and had a graduation assembly at school, he got 3 golds we were so proud of him. I was so glad Mum and Dad were there to share the moment, they have been so supportive, M never liked school as a little boy and so many times M&D kept me going and shared the positive times. It was great they were there to enjoy such a success, it also made it really special for M. In the evening we had a meal that Al and Anan came too, that was important for M and could have been difficult, particularly when himself came in to the house and didn't say hello to me.... idiot. Still it was important to all be there for M and he appreciated it.

Before the Prom the neighbours and M's friends came in for a drink then we went to watch all the pupils arrive for Prom, wow what a big deal it all is, as people got out of their cars the crowd cheered! It was great fun, so glad we went up to watch. Also so glad M not a girl, there was a serious amount of time and money behind some of the frocks, spray tans, makeup and cars!! It was wonderful to see M happy and doing well, he looked fab, so grown up and he was so confident, chatting to people, working the crowd like my Grandad used to! Over the last few days people have said some lovely positive things about him, I hope his results are good enough for him to go on to Budmth to do A levels.

M went off to his dad's for the first time in ages T and I have some time to ourselves, bliss! We went to S-on-A for a party which was good.

I have been feeling a bit worse in terms of stress levels, not sleeping so well, getting anxious and that but really we have been so busy at work and so much going on at home I think it's probably the reason but its a bit worrying and I am fed up with being a bit mad and not my old self. Anyway at work yesterday a patient's reli was aggressive and verbally abusive but I was calm and professional and got myself out of the house and called for some back up. Afterwards, yes I was shaky and my adrenaline levels were high but I carried on and about 2-3 hours after I was fine, I feel really positive about that, imagine if that had happened 4 or 5 months ago.... the other thing is the team was different, with the changes those that were left were kind and supportive, hhmm what a shame that was overshadowed two years ago by the lack of understanding and support that went on. Oh nurses can be mean!

River Cottage HQ

Weekend camping, we went to Axminster and ate at Hugh Furleywhirrlywhatshisname's cafe, mmmmm delicious. Apart from this trip out for lunch on Saturday we didn't leave the campsite, very lazy time making cups of tea, reading and walking a long way to the toilet! Our first outing with new tent, very successful until it came to taking it down in the rain. T now convinced we need a trailer as there no way we can fit 2 children, dog, us and all kit in car to go away in the summer!

Spring lambs

Cute or what?
It's Zumba tonight, I really need to go for it tonight I have eaten far too many biscuits in the last week, oops.
The summer white stuff catalogue has arrived today, need to be good so I can wear their lovely summer things without looking lardy bird!

Bank holidays

I worked over the Easter holidays then had some days off now feel really relaxed had a nice time. Dad came down & we went birdying, we saw a marsh harrier at radipole and a whimbrel at the Bill, it was such a thrill, the Harrier was huge, obviously! We chatted to a group from Preston, the "Preston lot". Then we drove home to happy Hitchin ready for the royal wedding, mum and I had a lovely day. We didn't move from the sofa, we watched it from start to finish then over again and again! Much comment on the hats and frocks, the wedding dress and bridesmaids, the Queen & Camilla. Wonderful day, totally exhausted by the end of it! Came home to spend day off with T back to work tomorrow. Saw a whinchat today and bartailed Godwits, both firsts for me. Have joined Portland bird observatory, think they do fab work and have been friendly and helpful so far.

Flippin 'eck

EastEnders

Sunday

M gone to his dads. Mum & dad have gone home so a dog walk and quiet afternoon playing with phones ! Have prepared letter for red nose day fun at work. Lovely weekend, work tomorrow :(

Lovely day

I have two lovely outfits from White Stuff. I have wanted clothes from there for ages but I needed to loose weight first. So I had a great time in Dorch with mum. We had tapas this evening at the Blue Fish, it has been a good day.

It's my birthday

Hip hip hoorah. I can remember how unwell I was this time last year, I have got so much better and in the last few weeks I can feel as if I'm really coping well. Since hearing that someone is leaving a weight has lifted from me and I am going to work with such a glow but now we have heard that there will be interviews to improve team dynamics. I think bloody hell just when I was getting my act together I have this to fret about.

Day off.

I had a facial today, it made my fillings tingle but it was really relaxing. I didn't check how much it would be before I had it and I was pleasantly surprised. Did some housework too, that was less relaxing but all in a good cause. Mum and dad are coming on Thursday, hoorah